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surfpiccasso
12 April 2009 @ 12:04 am



Feel alive no matter who hurts you and you won't die just remember to feel alive inside because you won't die no matter who hurts you it won't kill you. So go out and live your life and fly through the sky no matter how hot the guy just know this little secret you won't die. So just look up at the sky and shout I am alive. Because you won't die you will only shut your eyes and cry out loud but as long as you feel alive inside you won't die because of some guy.
 
 
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surfpiccasso
11 April 2009 @ 11:21 pm
I have taken all I can

I have given all I am

You never knew how I felt

Even when my heart began to melt

Every time I cried

You always seemed to hide

Even when I left

No tears came from your eye

You gave up on loving me

I give up on trying to be the girl you can love

I say goodbye love

All you do is remember what once was

I can't stay and play

You got what you wanted

You finally pushed me away
 
 
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surfpiccasso
11 April 2009 @ 11:14 pm



Why can some people feel so much and then others feel nothing at all? This question may never be answered. No matter how hard we try sometimes you just can't help the way people act or how they feel. Yes that is hard to give up on someone but the truth is you are not really giving up on them, they are giving up on themselves and on you. It's not your fault and it isn't anything you did because you could be the perfect person and someone could find something wrong with you. They could still cheat on you. I asked someone once why do you cheat? All he could tell me is that is is a game, he is a cheater, and that he tries to date as many girls as possible until he gets caught. The worst part is that even when he does get caught the girls don't leave him because they ask him if he did and he either lies and says that girl is crazy of course I am not cheating on you how can you think that and makes you feel bad for thinking it. Or he says yes I did baby but I will never ever do it again and I broke up with her because I only want to be with you please don't leave me. Of course you don't leave him because deep down in your heart you are praying and hoping that everything he said is true because you actually love him. The thing is even if he loves you it isn't true he will never stop cheating he might only be with you right now but he won't stay that way he will never change. That is a hard truth to swallow trust me I know. How can you love someone and then treat them like they are nothing? You can't thats not love. Love is when you want nothing more then to make the other person happy. Love is unconditional. You try so hard not to hurt that person and if you do if you mess up even a little bit you feel so bad and you try everything to make it up to that person no matter how long it takes no matter what you have to do because you are willing to do it for the one you love. If you are reading this and you disagree with me thats fine but you know deep down inside of you I have a point.
 
 
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surfpiccasso
11 April 2009 @ 11:11 pm



Do not regret what has already been done. It was done for a reason. I mean sometimes beyond all things you know it just wasnt meant to be orthat wasn't supposed to happen. If you tried everything that you could and more and it still didn't happen then don't regret because it wasn't supposed to happen. Looking back and regreting does nothing but make it hurt more. I know because I have regreted and it didn't change the past all it did was make me remember it ended and so now I am telling you don't regret. You can try to fix what went wrong but if it doesn't go the way you want that doesn't mean you failed or you did something wrong sometimes all it means is that it wasn't suppose to happen or it wasn't meant to last for ever. Don't give up on anything because this time things didn't happen the way you want because next time they may be perfect or it might end again. All you can do is wake up each day and live your life and when you finally do that everything will be ok again. Trust me.
 
 
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surfpiccasso
30 March 2009 @ 06:21 pm




What is the whole deal with the first kiss I mean I have had a few first kisses and to be honest most of them are not mind blowing. In fact I can't remember half of them. Not where they took place, not how long they were, some of them I don't even remember who they were with. I do however remember my very first real kiss. Not going to get into it though that story is way to long to be telling at least for now. I also remember my most recent first kiss. I remember where it was, how long it lasted, what the weather was like, and most of all who it was with. Most of the time people will not remember their first kiss but they almost always remember the last kiss. The one right before the good byes. The one right before the end we always seem to remember that kiss..... but why? Well most likely because we don't want it to be the last so we remember what it was like and wish for one more last kiss. You know its funny because for some reason the last kiss is always the best one of all even if it truly sicked we always say that it is the best the most memorable. Why is that we will never know but tell me what kiss you remember and it will prob be the last one. Or if you love someone it will be the one you are with right now and hopefully you remember every last one of those kisses.


By: Stevie Haile
 
 
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surfpiccasso
26 February 2009 @ 07:36 am



Do we settle for what ever is there and call it being in love because we are afraid to be alone? Or are we truly in love? So many people say I love you to so many different people. Do they really fall in love that easily or can they just not be alone so the use that word as a safety net? I think I have the same problem and the thing is that I have found someone that I really am in love with. The only problem is that I am going to hurt a lot of people by being with him. So do I be with him , be happy, and hurt all those people? Or do I go on just being ok and only hurting him? This is something no one but me can answer and the same goes for all of you out there who are going through the same problem. Me I am going to choose to be happy and be with him that was the easiest part to choose him. Now for the hardest part to tell everyone else the news. It is going to hurt a lot of people and people I really do care about and most of them are going to hate me but they have every right to hate me for doing this for so long. I just hope one day they will be able to forgive me. Especially one in particular because he is like greater then my best friend and greater then my brother he is something else. Something I would never find again but he is just not the one I am in love with no matter how hard I tried and believe me I tried harder then anything. I just can't hide the fact that I finally feel like I have found my soul mate, my other half, the one who finally completes me and I can't hide that feeling of complete happiness anymore.
 
 
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Current Music: Please Remember By: LeAnn Rimes
 
 
 
surfpiccasso
24 February 2009 @ 06:52 am



What is true love? How do I know when I have found my true love? Why can we see when other people are meant to be but we can never know who we are supposed to be with. Why can't we ever know who our true loves all but we can see it so clearly in other people? For me it is so hard because I have loved all of my boyfriends but I don't know if I have ever been truly in love before. What is the difference between love and caring for someone and true love? The difference for me is you can love your friends and care for your friends but you can only truly be IN love with one person it is a feeling you get deep down in your soul. Not your heart not in your gut and not in your head but deep down in your soul. I think our major problem is we mistake loving and caring for true love because it feels so much a like there is only one difference. When you are truly in love with someone your whole body feels warmth and safety and complete. It is as if you were missing something in your life all along and now that you have found them that emptiness is gone and you are finally whole.
 
 
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surfpiccasso
24 February 2009 @ 06:33 am




Is there really such a thing as forever? Do we even know what that meaning really means? Sometimes forever is used way to often and we can say forever baby to forty or fifty different partners before we finally find that one person that we truly do want to spend forever with. How many people have we hurt by promising them forever and never staying? How many times have you been hurt because someone promised you forever? The words love and forever are used so often that the meaning of these words is gone. We need to make up a new word for love when we finally find it and a new word for forever when we finally are ready and willing to stay. Love your heart out but never say I love you or forever to someone you are not ready to fulfill the true meaning of the words. A lot of people say actions speak louder then words but words stay forever and actions fade. These words are very very important and should only be given to the person who forever truly does mean forever.
 
 
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surfpiccasso
07 October 2008 @ 10:34 pm
 
 
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surfpiccasso
29 April 2008 @ 01:16 pm
When is it ok to speak your mind? When should you hold your tongue? These are hard questions because the truth is that no one really knows when we should speak up or when we need to hold our tongues. Most of the time I mess up and say things when I should hold my tongue and I only remember that I should have held my tongue only after I spoke my mind. I mean sometimes I do know when I should shut up but not most of the time and yet I always seem to know when to say what is on my mind at the right times maybe thats because I always say whats on my mind all the time. Except when it comes time to say things to guys I like. But isn't that how it always happens? But then again maybe it doesn't I have no idea really but thats what I want to believe.
 
 
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